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Sunday, July 15, 2007

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 23:23:59 GMT

its been exactly one year since my last blog on this.

i get these daily emails of what other people have blogged... and i read them and i think. wow i wish i had an exciting life to talk about... hahaha.
anyway, i had to post some kind of one year anniversary blog of my lacking creativity in the xanga world.

i think that, once i start actually doing something with my time... like school and travel, i may revive this sad little site and actually write in it. not that many are interested. i guess it gives me a false sense of security that at one point some tired, bored soul will attempt to read this mess :]

anyway, so long, til next year.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 16:32:49 GMT

this song describes how i feel.

Fight the fight alone
When the world is full of victims
Dims a fading light
In our souls

Leave the peace alone
How we all are slowly changing
Dims a fading light
In our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
The things we hold
Are always first to go
And who's to say
We won't end up alone

[CHORUS]

On broken wings I'm falling
And it won't be long
The skin on me is burning
By the fires of the sun
On skinned knees
I'm bleeding
And it won't be long
I've got to find that meaning
And I'll search for so long

Cry ourselves to sleep
We will sleep alone forever
Will you lay me down
In the same place with all I love

Mend the broken homes
Care for them they are our brothers
Save the fading light in our souls

In my opinion seeing is to know
What you give
Will always carry you
And who's to say
We won't survive it too

[CHORUS]

Set a-free all
Relying on their will
To make me all that I am
And all that I'll be

Set a-free all
Will fall between the cracks
With memories of all that I am
And all that I'll be

[CHORUS]
-Alter Bridge

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Jul 2006 16:45:29 GMT

while growing up you have your parents, just two, but they mean the world.
you meet your grandmas and grandpas and they enter it as well.

then you grow apart and other things chime in. you have other father figures, other mothers who take care of you.

and then you start to get older. you wish that they could always be there.
always there to help you grow.

but then they leave. and leave a gap that is impossible to fill.

[sigh]

can you ever feel whole again?

Monday, June 26, 2006

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 23:26:59 GMT

World Cup.

i want espn.

thanks Telemundo.

Monday, June 12, 2006

Mon, 12 Jun 2006 15:10:34 GMT

interesting.

i love having this oppertunity.
if i hadnt gone to summer school at SAC (san antonio college) i really believe i would have missed out on alot.
---yes i admit im really not enjoying the early mornings and homework ridden evenings...---

anyway. coming from a homeschool environment before i went to sacs (san antonio christian schools) high initially gave me a perspective rarely given to the kids of my generation. the ability to interact with all ages, the near nonexsistance of cliques according to ages and ethnicities. then going to sacs where all the prep girls hang out with the others and those who arent into the mold of bows, skirts and pinkness are kinda put to the side. no, its not rampant, its not in-your-face. but its there. and then now im at SAC not a typical "college" scene in that many different ages are present in the same classrooms and there are no stereotypes placed because so many have already lived their lives. they already have come to the acceptance that the outward doesnt matter. they've all been burned by a liar, screwed over by a boss and annoyed by a condesending coworker. so when the point of personal perspectives comes into place their automatic reaction is ususally not to judge according to dress or poise but on their reactions, personality and attitude. is it possible that once you leave the vaccuum of prada, chanel and cliques theres a real world of real people? hmm i hope so. i think so.
dont get me wrong, i cant say i havent looked at the chick in our class with the bebe tshirts, mac makeup and coach purse and havent thought her a rude, self-absorbed person. but hey, honestly she has not done anything to prove herself as anything less than my first impression, if anything its been reinforced. and yet the girl who has a lil bit of grunge style and the linkin park patch on her army-like messenger bag, is the sweetest soul ive ever met and a great conversationalist.

i love having the ability not to BE stereotyped and not TO stereotype.
its like a refreshing breath of cool air.

i can be me.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Wed, 31 May 2006 15:06:11 GMT

could it be tht when i have fun, im just so like, into all the goodness, that i get swept up in life. i never write on this xanga unless im either bored beyond all measure (SUMMER) or im depressed.

eh, or a lil bit of both, perhaps?

crazy how when it rains it pours.
nationwide has it right "LIFE COMES AT YOU FAST."

for sure.

crazy.

anyway, im at SAC now, trying to recall what possessed me to take a college class... i havent even started my senior year of high school. lol
its a good thing tho, im gonna have it out of the way, and im learning alot. being in a classroom with people who have gone through most of their lives of struggles and just having gone through so much more than i probably will ever have to face puts things in perspective, and is providing me with an insight on life which i probably wouldnt be able to attain in my sheltered little zone in which i live.

but why is it that things cant be further spaced apart? why do deaths, and trials and dissapointments all occur so close together that there really isnt even time to take a breather, or have a good cry and just Let Things OUT. hmmm
it could be that it just seems that way. although i seriously dont think that these occurances are normal.

i really dont want to bring anyone down. but life is pretty much screaming so loudly in my face i thought i'd write it down. sometimes it helps, sometimes it just helps me realize that im not totally overreacting. <3

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it all started about last thursday...
when you come to the realization that something you love and have had in your life for around 14 years, and become totally attached to, is leaving you and will never be coming back... it hurts.
although i didnt take the news quite as verbally as my sis and my mum did. you see, my mom's dog, who looked like a puppy, although she was 14 years old, got incredibly sick over a matter of days (following some other health issues) and passed away thursday night.
dad was in colorado so that was stressful to being with.
then mom got a flu-like cold, which, with her heart problems, is very risky and scary.
thennn, last night we found out that my sister's grandad (whose sooo close to us.) has cancer and we're losing him pretty quickly.
yesterday we were going to close on the house, but that fell through... which in the long run looks like its a much better result than if we had gone through with the buidling.
mmm and my mom's health is kinda pending because, shes stressed, sad, and worried about her dad all at once.

*SIGH*

alot of issues in a week's timespan.

mmm i need to come to terms and just fully depend on God. i know He's there, its just hard to really truly trust Him with everything...

oh boy.

♥

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

Tue, 23 May 2006 16:40:16 GMT

this is toulouse.

and that is the zippster. (zipporah)

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Sat, 29 Apr 2006 15:02:33 GMT

i dont ever update this

im a terrible person

im sorry

...inothernews...
seniors leave this upcoming week. *cries*
jr/sr banquet is in two weeks.
bidistrict is on monday.

micah is visiting <3 yay!
i want new converse.
theres nothing to eat in my house.

lol.

♥

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 16:03:54 GMT

Put your iTunes on shuffle. Skip to the next song for each answer. No cheating.

How am I feeling today?

Switch- Will Smith

Will I get far in life?

Ordinary People- John Legend

How do my friends see me?

Simle Like You Mean It- The Killers

Where will I get married?

Brothers On A Hotel Bed- Death Cab For Cutie

What is my best friend's theme song?

Lost & Found- Will Smith

What is the story of my life?

Straitjacket Feeling- The All-American Rejects

What was high school like?

Beautiful- Audio Adrenaline

How can I get ahead in life?

Go- Blink 182

What is the best thing about me?

Fine- Steve

How is today going to be?

Last Words- Thousand Foot Krutch

What is in store for this weekend?

In This World- Good Charlotte

What song describes my parents?

Somewhere in Between- Lifehouse

To describe my grandparents?

You Set Me Free- Michelle Branch

How is my life going?

The One I'm Waiting For- Relient K

What song will they play at my funeral?

You Might Die Trying- Dave Matthews Band

How does the world see me?

Such Great Heights- The Postal Service

Will I have a happy life?

In My Head- Anna Nalick

What do my friends really think of me?

He Wasn't- Avril Lavigne

Do people secretly lust after me?

Everybody's Changing- Keane

How can I make myself happy?

Everything Will Be Alright- The Killers

What should I do with my life?

The Ghost Of You- My Chemical Romance

Will I ever have children?

Young Pilgrims- The Shins

What is some good advice for me?

Lonely Man- Audio Adrenaline

How will I be remembered?

Several Ways To Die Trying- Dashboard Confessional

What is my signature dancing song?

Over-Rated- Gavin DeGraw

What do I think my current theme song is?

Long Way Down- Goo Goo Dolls

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?

Nothingwrong- Jimmy Eat World

What type of men/women do you like?

Make Out Kids- Motion City Soundtrack

haha... this cracks me up...
omg, all the death ones are tha same.... scary

funfunfun.

♥

Sunday, March 19, 2006

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 16:10:01 GMT

i was watching
and after it all we started talking...
stephanie's only additive was that it was slow... as if we we'rent already aware of her opinion after she had fallen asleep halfway through.
i was flipping through newsweek when i saw an amazing artice about it. oddly enough not biased towards any certain side.

Newsweek Article

interesting.

♥